reify

bobbing up and down
on a sea of uncertainty:
worried.
waiting.
wanting.

you

in so many ways I
never knew before…

held up.
held close to my heart
held close to my hands
by you,
with the calming expectation
of
promises you made
but give no indication
you plan
to keep.

lost and alone
I seek solace in
an early exit-
a controlled departure-
knowing you
will always wonder what
I was running from
even though
deep down…
all along…
we both knew:

it was you.