breaking apart

 

something breaks inside me

and it all oozes out

hot flash

passion

flowing through me

I’m lost in an act

on autopilot

out of control

just looking at myself as if I were above me

I cannot recount the act

i cannot recall the motions

it hangs in the air like silence, like shock

I walk away from myself

who was that man inside of me

why won’t he go away

helplessness redefining me, I sequester the acts

the jury that convicts me again with every

recollection

our love, outlined in chalk now

passing away at my hands

and I can’t recall why.