the damage isn’t apparent
in your smile
in your photo
or anywhere around you
BUT it’s there
someone; him, me
robbed you of your esteem
stole your innocence
crashed your party when
you thought
everything
was going so very perfectly.
denial- you’re in denial-
he’s in denial
I’m denying EVERYTHING
none of this ever happened
(make it go away)
none of it ever happened
but it did.
Now, with a glance away
or across a room
or at someone else
e v e r y t h i n g ‘ s gonna be all right.
Nothing’s right.
Screaming epitaphs in your noggin
joggin something loose in you
now it is all broken
your fairytale is shattered,
a chair that Goldilocks tried and found a bit too small
small.
like the way it feels
when someone ELSE refuses to validate ME
I am scarred, too scarred to validate myself.
broken, small, denying, damaged, invalidated.
describe yourself in five words or less
tell me what I did to you
show me how bad it feels
to be
feeling
nothing
at all.
trust
rusted
left to whither on a vine
we failed to weed away
This is someone else’s problem.
Someone else’s pain.
I see me inside of you, your eyes
your cries
your sighs
I see you inside of me
the things I shouldn’t have said
or did, the things I did that
cannot be undone
glass breaking
quickly as your heart
well after your spirit
I’m to blame,
you’re to blame
he’s to blame
no one, no one,
no one is to blame.
we’re all just waiting, watching in slow motion
any semblance of who you were
drifting past the event horizon
all that’s left are the strings
the puppeteer has walked away.
according to s.e. senter 
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